Monday, May 12, 2008
hey nat and steph, thanks for posting.
to nat: i suppose when i was con 4, i was totally different from you. i wasnt so worried about what's gonna happen during mass or whats gonna happen after i got confirmed... not exactly apathy.. but not so concerned either.. i felt that i will just 'go with the flow', and see what happens next..like on my confirmation day itself, a few hours before the mass i was still by the poolside suntanning and stuff, and i was even slightly late for the debrief before the mass. during mass i didnt feel anything special.. was more or less like any other mass, just that you get to see your friends dress up. in retrospect, yes i would have wanted to be like you.. wanted the mass to be special and all. but i dont really regret anything that happened then because all that matters now, is the NOW.
i dont know what or how to help you answer your questions about your confusion.. but i know for sure that sometimes, just take a step back and let 'jesus take the wheel' as you put it. dont know if you can remember what one of the catechists said. sometimes we just want god to speak to us or work wonders in our life or heart, that we leave no space for him to enter our hearts..
i suppose the nursery song was right in a sense.. que sera sera.. whatever will be.. will be.. the future's not our's to see... que sera sera... when i was just a little girl.....
on the other hand, apathy is definitely not the way to go here. but i doubt that would be a problem for those of you who do visit this blog and read the posts.. i guess the easiest way to grow in your faith is to join a group in church.. be it YC or choir or YF or the newest group, Seraphic Embrace.. OR, if you cant find a group that you like, why not start one! that would actually be awesome!
yea as i said, join a group.. any group..because truthfully speaking, if i had not become a YF, i'd just be a sunday catholic (or perhaps less than that), and eventually just lose in touch with god and my faith.. and not have questions coming to me that after being answered, allowed me to get to know god and myself better.. and of course, i wouldn't have met you people..
to add on to steph's post.. i was online on friday night, talking to matthew online.. and he asked me,' are you gonna miss us'. and my answer was and still is and will always be yes. it's been very enjoyable getting to know all of you.. not as a class, but as individuals.. often i feel that there is just not enough time and opportunity to really get to know you in class.. and even outside class, i have always felt that i could have and can do more to know you guys better. what's your favourite ice cream flavour, whats your favourite word, what films and books do you like the most.. all these questions and more questions.. will still remain unanswered after 3.5 years of confirmation class.. and i do feel guilty about that...i would really really love to see you guys in church even after confirmation.. not just because it's O levels year, or because my friend or this cute guy/girl is going, then i go for mass. NO. i would very much love to participate in a camp organised by you guys, pray together with you guys, faciliate a class together with you guys, and after that, go out for a meal or two after all these activities, or perhaps even go night cycling or plan an overseas CIP trip or something like that. I want the word "US" to still exist, if it had existed before, or if it hadn't, then create this "US".
i've rambled again. apologies.. but this "US", is so important.. because it is because the essence of Catholicism is.. (any prizes for guessing it right).. COMMUNITY. so for those who know where and what they are going after confirmation, kudos! for those who dont, pray about it and talk to people. and between those who know and those who dont, help each other out. as friends, as a community. and remember, there's always the rest of us who will always be here to listen and to give you our perspectives (not advice. perspectives)...
toodles doodles..
love, adeline
to nat: i suppose when i was con 4, i was totally different from you. i wasnt so worried about what's gonna happen during mass or whats gonna happen after i got confirmed... not exactly apathy.. but not so concerned either.. i felt that i will just 'go with the flow', and see what happens next..like on my confirmation day itself, a few hours before the mass i was still by the poolside suntanning and stuff, and i was even slightly late for the debrief before the mass. during mass i didnt feel anything special.. was more or less like any other mass, just that you get to see your friends dress up. in retrospect, yes i would have wanted to be like you.. wanted the mass to be special and all. but i dont really regret anything that happened then because all that matters now, is the NOW.
i dont know what or how to help you answer your questions about your confusion.. but i know for sure that sometimes, just take a step back and let 'jesus take the wheel' as you put it. dont know if you can remember what one of the catechists said. sometimes we just want god to speak to us or work wonders in our life or heart, that we leave no space for him to enter our hearts..
i suppose the nursery song was right in a sense.. que sera sera.. whatever will be.. will be.. the future's not our's to see... que sera sera... when i was just a little girl.....
on the other hand, apathy is definitely not the way to go here. but i doubt that would be a problem for those of you who do visit this blog and read the posts.. i guess the easiest way to grow in your faith is to join a group in church.. be it YC or choir or YF or the newest group, Seraphic Embrace.. OR, if you cant find a group that you like, why not start one! that would actually be awesome!
yea as i said, join a group.. any group..because truthfully speaking, if i had not become a YF, i'd just be a sunday catholic (or perhaps less than that), and eventually just lose in touch with god and my faith.. and not have questions coming to me that after being answered, allowed me to get to know god and myself better.. and of course, i wouldn't have met you people..
to add on to steph's post.. i was online on friday night, talking to matthew online.. and he asked me,' are you gonna miss us'. and my answer was and still is and will always be yes. it's been very enjoyable getting to know all of you.. not as a class, but as individuals.. often i feel that there is just not enough time and opportunity to really get to know you in class.. and even outside class, i have always felt that i could have and can do more to know you guys better. what's your favourite ice cream flavour, whats your favourite word, what films and books do you like the most.. all these questions and more questions.. will still remain unanswered after 3.5 years of confirmation class.. and i do feel guilty about that...i would really really love to see you guys in church even after confirmation.. not just because it's O levels year, or because my friend or this cute guy/girl is going, then i go for mass. NO. i would very much love to participate in a camp organised by you guys, pray together with you guys, faciliate a class together with you guys, and after that, go out for a meal or two after all these activities, or perhaps even go night cycling or plan an overseas CIP trip or something like that. I want the word "US" to still exist, if it had existed before, or if it hadn't, then create this "US".
i've rambled again. apologies.. but this "US", is so important.. because it is because the essence of Catholicism is.. (any prizes for guessing it right).. COMMUNITY. so for those who know where and what they are going after confirmation, kudos! for those who dont, pray about it and talk to people. and between those who know and those who dont, help each other out. as friends, as a community. and remember, there's always the rest of us who will always be here to listen and to give you our perspectives (not advice. perspectives)...
toodles doodles..
love, adeline
11:55 PM
My Garden
A class of youth, struggling to place themselves in a future that seems too distant and alien.
Sometimes, plants grow
And so, we look back
October 2007
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January 2008
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March 2008
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Thinking of the present
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